I was thinking about everything that's been going on in my personal life right now....and you know what i realized? I realized how much I'd like to snap right now. I feel so stressed during some of my days that I don't know how I've manage, now grant it I tend to get easily stressed but between me having to take charge in my history study group, my weight gain (which I seriously blame on stress, pressure, and mental and emotional exhaustion), the pressure of excellent grades, family tension (which increases when my step-dad starts acting like an ass, Example: when he starts calling me names based of my figure), trying trying to find time for myself where I won't be called to do something ever ten minutes or so....and OH! work and my debt to EF Tours for Costa Rica. I realize that I've brought parts of this on myself but it is all truly starting to add up...and on days when i can feel my shaking getting worse to where I can barely write or type...that just freaks me out. When ever I start going over my day I realize that i still have things to do like making a phone call, or sending out a plea for help for paying off my tour, and getting a passport, and working on getting my license, and i figure out what I'm going to do fro an internship next year....the list just gets longer every day. I swear though, if my step-dad comments one more time in my weight I might have to tell him to go screw himself....I wasn't even sure if I wanted to post all this but really....jeeze. I'd like to go find something physical to do but it either costs money (which my family don't have much of) or it doesn't for some reason work out....and just going to run isn't really my thing....plus I have not motivation for that, by the time I have my energy back it's already like 9:00 pm and on the days i do just want to walk around my mom wants to go with, which i really don't mind I do tend to enjoy walking with but that means I have to try to keep up with which means I get left in the dust....Okay, so sorry about all the complaining but i had to get this all out of my system and this only the only thing i could think of doing at the time.
'Til next time,
Faith